I'm dumb and dying and cannot conjure the energy to care

My stupidity is clumsy and careless
My excuses they're empty and thoughtless
I speak with indifference
If I apologize I don't see the point
If you have to try to be sincere
So accept my silence
Cause I've got nothing to say

I lack beliefs to dictate my actions
I am the motion of my daily attractions
They've taken my mind
And left a few frustrated attempts
To recycle or salvage whatever lef of myself
I'm running through water
When I should just swim

My room's like a vacuum tonight
Our lives only have the values we chose to apply
The silence like oil swirls
And comes to life

I know I'm not gone yet but time's running out
I'll accept my destiny, spend my time getting drunk
And I'll hurrah with the corpses
And pretend what I feel is real
We'll toast suicide with our abandoned eyes undertoning all our cheers
And we'll suffer without protest
Until we can't feel a thing

My room's like a vacuum tonight
Dark silhouettes heave under drunken sight
The silence like oil swirls
And comes to life

My stupidity is clumsy and careless
My excuses they're empty and thoughtless
I speak with indifference
If I apologize I don't fucking see the point
If you have to try to be sincere
So accept my silence
Cause I've got nothing to say

Sight like december